Unlike Jack Bauer from “24” (one of our favorite TV shows), we feel battered, bruised and literally exhausted after our big day. On the flip side, Doug jumpstarted his diet and I managed to loose 5 pounds, yes all in the past 24 hours!…

We hade a little scare. No wait, a BIG scare. A Very big scare. Here we were hopping and skipping through life. Introducing Anika to our world of Disney Princesses and Play Dough (all of which she had never encountered before) when suddenly, BAM Adelaine got sick. It wasn’t that she just got sick. She started showing signs, symptoms like she had when she was first diagnosed with Leukemia. It was during the evening on Sunday, just after a very magical birthday party at “Give Kids the World” with Anika. Adelaine had been sick with a mild cold right along with the rest of us. BUT, her neck glands had swollen up and her neck resembled the neck of a Super Bowl football player’s. Not to mention the bruises all over her legs.

All day Sunday Adelaine kept saying that her neck hurt, but I was assuming she meant her throat. After all, my throat was hurting, so I just gave her some Tylenol and put the girls down for a nap. Well when they woke up, I noticed Adelaine’s swollen neck and began to feel her glands. My heart literally sank as visions of cancer repeat began to swirl in my head. Doug and I decided to let her have a great night’s sleep in our bed before we began a possible hellish walk back down cancer lane.

Although Adelaine slept like a baby, Doug and I did not! We barely slept. The sleep I did manage to get was laced with nightmares. I dreamed that I had cancer and was trying to figure a way to make it at least a few more years so that the children wouldn’t have to grow up without a mother. Then I dreamt that my mother died of cancer. Strangely I didn’t dream that ADELAINE had cancer. Finally the sun came up and we were able to make arrangements…

Our Pediatrician was not so quick to tell us that it wasn’t cancer, unlike last time!!! (Before Adelaine was actually diagnosed with cancer in July 2006, she had been sick with a cold and I noticed very swollen glands in her neck. It felt like Skittles under her skin behind her ears. I rushed her to the Pediatrician and asked, “Do you think she has cancer?” I’m not sure why I asked. I had no ideal that swollen glands could even mean, “cancer”! But I asked the question and he reassured me that it wasn’t cancer. Well, we all know how that turned out!) So needless to say this time he did not reassure of us of anything. In fact he tried to help us prepare for the worst.

After Adelaine’s had her blood taken we had to wait about four hours for the phone call with the results. Doug and I took the girls grocery shopping (the boys were at school). During our shopping excursion I was back in cancer mode. I would see mothers pushing their daughters in the cart and think to myself, “It just isn’t fair that Adelaine has to go through this. Why can’t she just have a normal, healthy life like everyone else? It just isn’t right all the suffering she has had to go through, and so on ….” I was in a very depressed funk and frankly a complete wreck have to think about cancer all over again.

Long story short, he called us with her blood test results which proved that she did NOT have any leukemia cells in her blood. We are so relieved. But the fact still stands that her neck is extremely swollen. Her glands have bumps and knots around her jaw and on the back of her neck too. She has a slight cough, but feels great! We are just watching and waiting for her glands to return to normal. At this time the doctor feels it must just be a virus. We would be so grateful if everyone would pray that her gland go back down to normal with no further incident.

As for Doug and me, we are praising God and recuperating from the drama. Today is a glorious day. Not only is Adelaine enjoying a normal happy day at school, (Well today IS the Princess and Pirate party at school, so I guess better than normal. Can anyone guess which one Adelaine chose to dress up as?) The weather should be around 80 degrees and we plan to spend the afternoon enjoying the sunshine riding bikes and playing on the playground, just like little children should! We are so thankful that today we are not facing another battle with cancer. Unfortunately, many of our friends are facing this battle, some for a repeated time. Please pray for those families. If you and your loved ones have your health, Praise God for that. Our health is such a blessing and a wonderful gift.

So far this has been our second relapse scare. Sometimes when Adelaine gets sick and she begins to show those all too familiar signs, like her lips look pale or something, I get this little shock of fear. It feels like I get zapped with electricity and my whole body stings, but then I snap out of it. But a real scare isn’t that easy. Did I handle this scare any better than the last one? No, I did not! When these relapse scares do creep up, Doug and I realize that this is part of our new “normal”. These “scares” are going to be part of our lives now. They will never really go away, but hopefully they won’t come up that often. One good thing that comes from them is that today will not just be another GREAT day in paradise (AKA South Florida), but a GLORIOUS day in paradise!!! We have so much to be thankful for!

Angela

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