We had a very interesting night last night! Let me start off by saying this…. As a grownup I have learned to compartmentalize my life. It helps me to wear all my different hats, form mom, to nurse, to wife, to friend, to chief, to swim instructor, to caregiver on the job, to daughter… you get the picture…

Can you just imagine my surprise when last night we went to the pool to swim and our Oncologist was there? Oh yes! I had her put away in the clinic/hospital box, never even considering running into her somewhere, much less at the pool, our pool, AND THERE SHE WAS!!!!! Granted it is the St. Pete Country Club, but still it was so bizarre. She came right up and asked if I recognized her, she normally has curly hair, crazy curly, but it was completely straight. I took Adelaine over to see her. Luckily Adelaine didn’t grab her port and start screaming, No, No, No!!! What a well adjusted little girl she has turned out to be, despite the odds! We talked for a while and met her children. Later that night, as I sat comfortably in my lounge chair, listening to the band play and watching the children swim, I looked over and there she was dancing to Jimmy Buffet!!!! I just looked up into the sky and started laughing, what a crazy world this is, you never know what surprises are in store!!!!!

Speaking of surprises here’s one…

Let me back up, this is something that many of you already know about me, but some may not…
When I was a little girl, I loved babies. By the time I out grew playing with dolls, I started babysitting! Every Sunday I worked in the church nursery, from the time I was about 10 years old until I had my own children and kind of needed a break! After I graduated from college I open my own daycare in Georgia. I have always loved them. I can remember begging my mom to have another baby, but she didn’t listen! Ha! No one that really knows me should be surprised that I would have a lot of children!!!

During College, I had decided to adopt a baby girl from China. My roommate in London was Chinese, and I guess you could say was inspired. As soon as I graduated, I began working on it. In about a year’s time, everything was complete, INS had received my Dacia and I was to begin the, then, 9 month waiting period (now its several years). Well soon after that, the laws in China changed and I no longer meet the new age requirements as a single parent. But, during that time I had met Doug. He said that once I completed the adoption, he would love to get married and adopt her too! Well, after things fell through with the adoption, we were able to get married whenever we wanted, so we did. Ten months later, Mason was born! Two years after that came Bowen, and two years after that, came Adelaine, and then came cancer!

Let me back up to when I no longer met the age requirements in China. It was devastating. I guess it’s true when one door closes another opens, but, my dream of holding my little Asian was crushed. This baby that had grown in my heart for such a long time was now gone. I mourned over that loss for years. Doug promised that we would adopt from China one day, so I really held on to that. But realistically, it costs a small fortune to adopt from another country. When I was single and running my own business, I could afford it, in fact the adoption was already paid for when I got the news. After we moved here we met a couple who were waiting to get their baby… they are still waiting!!!!

Last year, I started praying diligently that God would take away my desire to adopt from China. Guess what? He did!!! I no longer feel that a little Asian girl is somehow missing from our lives. If it really wasn’t going to happen, then why should I feel in bondage over it, you know? It really did help that China can be so, “sand in the bathing suit” about letting their abandoned children go. I’m not really up for a mountain of paperwork and a year’s worth of fiery hoops to jump through just to start waiting… and waiting… and waiting. By the time we went to get the baby, again we probably wouldn’t meet their age requirements, this time it wouldn’t be because we were too young, but because we were too OLD!!! Now, I can search deeply into my heart and I have been healed from that desire. I feel so free!

So, ready for the big surprise? No, were not pregnant. I’m not sure I am up for going through all that again, but we are expecting…

We’ve just completed 10 weeks of classes and are midway through our Homestudy. Our instructor, Ed, was incredible and we really enjoyed the classes and the people we met there. The social worker doing our Homestudy is such an amazing person, we just love her! By the end of summer we are expecting to be bringing home a beautiful baby girl! Adelaine’s dream of getting a sister is just about to come true! Our entire family is very excited! We are going through the Foster program of Hillsborough County. Yes, one lucky little girl will be coming here to live with us. I say she’s lucky because she will be soooo loved and cared for. Adelaine will finally get to be a big sister. One of the social workers said that there is usually about an 85% chance that the baby would NOT be reunited with her family and we would be able to eventually adopt her. This is where ALL of YOU come in, please pray over this situation. It would be devastating to have a baby here and then have her taken away. I said I would NEVER foster because of that risk, never say never, right?!!! So far everything has fallen right into place and the entire process has been as smooth as glass.

I keep thinking about the percentages we’ve been quoted over the past two years. We’ve been given a small chance that Adelaine could relapse and we’ve been given a small chance that we may not be able to keep the baby we are bring into our home. If Adelaine was placed back into my arms and they said, “Here you are, she’s all fixed and you never have to worry about cancer again”, and if they said, “Here’s your beautiful adopted baby girl, she is going to be yours forever”, I can’t lie, that would feel great, but by knowing God I don’t HAVE to hear those things. I can go to my Father in prayer and share the desires of my heart. I know He hears me and wants what is best for me, all I can do is lean on Him and trust in Him, I really don’t have any other option. I think my loving Heavenly Father wouldn’t have it any other way. He wants us to have faith and trust Him. He wants us to come together and pray for each other. I firmly believe that Adelaine will not die until she’s an old woman warm in her bed, and much of the reason I can believe this is because I know so many people have prayed God’s healing on her. If we have everyone praying for us to adopt a baby girl I know He can do that too!

We will keep everyone posted about the baby. Please pray for God’s special purpose in her life. Please pray that God will protect her and give her everything she needs until she can be rescued. We can’t wait for our two worlds to collide! And if our sweet baby turns out to be Asian, wouldn’t that make me laugh!

Angela

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